Feeling lost in my life
Drowning in things beyond my control
Losing my mind to find acceptance
So I can move forward
Instead of backward and downward.
I must break this cycle before
It breaks me.
God, help me
Find my way
Follow your path
Rise to the occasion of
All you have in store for me.
I’m walking a fine line between
Doing what’s expected of me
Because I have no faith in the task
That is thrust upon me.
It is tearing me apart
As I’ve always done what’s asked
Yet every bone in my body tells me
To stop the insanity.
I fear the consequences of speaking up
Could cause great pain
And yet if I don’t I will have failed.
This burden weighs heavy on me
As I sit and watch another train wreck
About to happen.
I don’t know God’s plan in all this
But I hope it is revealed soon before
I become undone by it all.
While we Americans live in interesting times
We are still a nation borne out of freedom,
Thanks to the principles our forefathers
Had the brilliance to document in
The Declaration of Independence.
And for that I am forever grateful
For the privilege to live in this
Less than perfect country we call home,
Celebrating our Day of Independence.
Finding yourself at the precipice
Of a long journey
Climbing a hundred million steps up
Discovering that you’ve left behind
The you of your past
The fear that held you back
The anger that kept you there
Replaced with the knowledge of your own wisdom
The understanding of your metamorphosis
The awareness that the emerging
New you might be a threat to some,
An acceptance by those who love you
And the greatest sense of liberation
That will free your spirit to
Accomplish what you were meant to do
On your own terms.
The questions are coming,
Threatening to break open
The wounds of betrayal
That keep haunting me.
Information is the only currency
That counts in a world where
Trust is nothing but a disguise
Integrity cannot exist under such
Nearly choking me.
I want to flee
But my legs won’t move.
My heart carries this burden
With God’s grace, I pray
That the hurt will subside
So I can find my way toward the
Light once more.
Forgiving the hurt, pain, anger
Has weighed on my soul
For days and months and years.
Though I know flailing about in this space
Does me no good,
I have not been ready to let go.
A wise friend shared
That forgiveness doesn’t mean
Accepting what the other person did.
Instead, it sets you free
To move forward
To release and let in joy
Without boundaries in your heart.