Calm My Soul

Disruptive living

Creates chaos,

Conflict, and


That undo me.

Yesterday, my intention was

A request to God

To calm my soul,

In whatever comes my way.

I had no idea that I would

End up at the hospital

To find out if my mom

Had a heart attack (she did not).

Through the endless waiting,

I willed myself to be calm

For me as much as for her.

Her childlike wonder

Cast its own surrealism

As she didn’t know why she was there.

My heart broke several times

With the knowledge that

This is the beginning of a

Long ending.

Moms and Daughters

We are moms and daughters

Who love loving the people

In our lives.

We are women in different seasons,

From new teenagers to 80-something.

We watch our daughters in awe

As they talk about their lives–

The challenges and joys,

Laughter and tears,

Hopes and dreams.

Our mom selves listen intently

Before sharing our stories

From earlier lives

When we didn’t know our path.

Our journeys have molded us

Into our womanhood that we

Hope to pass on to our daughters

Gathered around today

To celebrate us.

Words from My Mother

My mind is really slipping away

I don’t know where I’m going

My mother never wanted me

You were her favorite


I love you

You are beautiful

I am so proud of you


Have you heard from your sister?

When did I have surgery?

How are the girls?


These words from my mother

Take me on a rollercoaster

Of emotions, never knowing

Which statement will

Tear me apart or

Fill me with joy.


Soul Searcher

At my mom’s bedside,

I sat listening to her

As she spoke about love,

As she spoke about marriage,

As she spoke about how blessed

We are to have found such

Wonderful men as our husbands.

She kept talking

I kept listening.

She mentioned that I

Had always been a soul searcher,

Even as a child.

I wondered how she knew

How much searching I’ve done.

In that moment

I had her back as she used to be

For her mind only keeps

Certain memories,

Ones that aren’t about me.

So I accept it as a gift

God wanted me to have

To remind me that she is

Still my mom.

I Love You, Mom

A call from ER

Pain gripping her senses

Infection running rampant

Cutting through her stomach

Not sure she’d survive the night

Praying for a miracle

Surviving emergency surgery

Feeling dazed

Friends and husband standing by

With their support

Has exhausted everything in me.

In ICU I saw her helpless

As the tube down her throat

Cut off her voice,

But her eyes said more than

Words could ever say

As they begged for help

While I walked away,

Tears running down my face.

Now out of ICU, her Alzheimer’s

Obliterates everything that has happened.

She does not know why she

Is in the hospital or

Why she is in pain.

She keeps asking the same questions

While all I can say is that

I love you, mom.